♥: October 2010

I have loved and lost

Many times I have loved and lost, for so long my heart lay shattered and broken. I have given up on life and pieces of my heart scattered, have left it bleeding, numbing with pain.

Then you came along, patiently you picked them up, unceasingly healing it back with the warmth of your love. Slowly my heart began to feel again, like a flower awakening to the warmth of the sun. Bringing life and it's splendor back in existence into my world.

Yet with all the love you showered, the care you've lavished, reluctance still lurks in my heart and mind. You've given me everything and asked for nothing. Healed my heart, given me hope and selflessly asked that I let you love me in return. That was all you've ever asked from me, yet even that I didn't give.

I cannot blame you, everyone and everything has it's limit... even love... It's true that you never know what you have until you've lost it...

It's been 8 years since I left you and never a day pass that I don't think of you. It maybe late, maybe you've found someone who loves you and you love in return. Maybe you have now the kids you've always wanted and would have given up because for me. Maybe you're now living the life that you've always wanted, a loving wife, bunch of kids, homecooked dinners and picnics on sundays.

Know that I'm happy for you, and that the love and care you've shown and given me was never a waste. It maybe a little late, but winter gave way to spring and I have you to thank for that.

Maybe we weren't meant to be together in this lifetime, maybe you were meant just to heal my heart so that it'll know your love.

In the next lifetime when we meet, my heart will know you and remember your love. And by then my true love, I will never let you go....

Koi Anjaan

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Koi Anjaan Jab Apna Ban Jata Hai...

Najanay Kyun Wo Bohat Yaad Ata Hai,

Laakh Bhulana Chaho Us Chehray Ko Magar...

Aks Us ka Har Cheez Main Nazer Aata Hai..

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I'd be holding the galaxy in my hands

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If I had a star for every time you brightened my day...

I'd be holding the galaxy in my hands

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my heart believes in you

I kept my head up high,
and then you came my way.
I have been hurt so many times.

My heart filled with so much pain.
but now that pain has gone away.
For I have found a place I want to be.

This place I see is with thee.
For in your arms I have felt and seen,
a wonderful feeling that I cannot believe.

A safe haven in your arms just for me.
Now I give my heart to thee.
For my heart believes in you.

AND IM DONE CRYING OVER YOU!!

And all i did was let you know how i felt truly and deeply. and how i really didnt want you to go. but why is it so hard to let you go knowing how you treated me? why do i keep coming back for more? things will never work out so why do i wnat to try to make it? even though were over, im wanting you back, why? you hurt me in so many ways i just cant say, you let me down to much days! yet im the one to blame.

I want to let you go, but you left me with all our memories that keep hurting me so deep inside. im deleting your number off my phone, im letting you go, im done playing the blame game, AND IM DONE CRYING OVER YOU!!

AND IM DONE CRYING OVER YOU!!

you came into my life again, leaving more footprings in my heart.
while i was trying to hold on tight you let go without a fright.
not even saying goodbye as if you didnt want to, but letting go like you always wanted.
you treated me as if i was nothing, always putting me down, making me feel worthless.

And all i did was let you know how i felt truly and deeply.
and how i really didnt want you to go.
but why is it so hard to let you go knowing how you treated me? why do i keep coming back for more? things will never work out so why do i wnat to try to make it? even though were over, im wanting you back, why? you hurt me in so many ways i just cant say, you let me down to much days! yet im the one to blame.

I want to let you go, but you left me with all our memories that keep hurting me so deep inside. im deleting your number off my phone, im letting you go, im done playing the blame game, AND IM DONE CRYING OVER YOU!!

last sunset for our love

Gazing upon your face
Your love has released my heart
To drown,
To sleep forever,
In your sweet embrace

If I could reach the stars I'd place them in your eyes
Just to remind me of such a timeless beauty
Of you

Lost myself to you
I could not fall again
Held here by your grace
I'm bound here forever by this
Infatuation

If I could
If I could reach the stars
I'd place them in your eyes
Just to remind me of a such a timeless beauty

And when tomorrow tears you from my arms
I'll pray for one last sunset for our love

zindagi bojh bani

Rasm-e-dunya ko nibhayen to nibhayen kesy

har taraf aag hai daman ko bachayen kesy

ik ghumon ka bojh hota to utha b lety . ..

zindagi bojh bani ho to uthayen kesy

◙ ◙ A taper in a rushing wind. ♥

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I am not yours, not lost in you,
Not lost, although I long to be
Lost as a candle lit at noon,
Lost as a snowflake in the sea.

You love me, and I find you still
A spirit beautiful and bright,
Yet I am I, who long to be
Lost as a light is lost in light.

Oh plunge me deep in love -- put out
My senses, leave me deaf and blind,
Swept by the tempest of your love,
A taper in a rushing wind.

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Us Chehray Ko

Koi Anjaan Jab Apna Ban Jata Hai...

Najanay Kyun Wo Bohat Yaad Ata Hai,

Laakh Bhulana Chaho Us Chehray Ko Magar...

Aks Us ka Har Cheez Main Nazer Aata Hai..